I read a little quote the other day: it was something about how if you want find your passion, you need to remember it. I’ve really struggled with knowing what I want to be when I grow up. I have so many interests – and one or two talents – and it’s really hard to pin down a single thing to focus on. I want to do it all: to sing, make games, do comedy, draw, invent, take photographs, make comics, design, play instruments, write… I want to leave a mark on the world in some creative way.
This can all be quite an emotional challenge if, like me, you have extremely high self-imposed expectations. It’s not good enough to just do these things. I want to – need to – do them really, really well. And being a high achiever means that if I start and struggle, I’m very tough on myself. Perhaps you can relate?
Somewhere along the way, I’d decided I must be a superstar at everything I do, and that anything less than the best is a felony (sorrynotsorry). But just lately I’ve been thinking, why must I? Why not be ‘above average’ at lots of things, acceptable (or rubbish) at some, and maybe really good at one or two? That’s actually okay. In fact it’s great. That’s what life is like. If you try to do it all, you will spread your energy thin, and never really get to be spectacular. By all means, take time – lots of it – to try all the things, but eventually you may find yourself wondering what your passion is, and that is the point where you need to remember your passion and choose to pursue it.
After a ton of reflection, I think I’ve reached that turning point in this lifelong journey and I’ve remembered… I love to write. Since I was a kid, I’ve loved stories and the written word. That has carried over into adulthood, where the story of a thing is what I love most. Books, movies, TV, games; it all comes back to the writing and telling of great stories. Even in my day to day life, I’d choose written communication over any other form. Oh sure, I love to talk – anyone who knows me can attest to that – but writing is my sanctuary.
And that brings us to why I’m here. This is my story, decades in the making. Perhaps you will find something here to help start you on your creative journey, as I muddle along on mine.
I am a writer.